Today has been another hard day. Good thing it has been productive. Last night I forgot to turn on my alarm clock. No matter, my body woke up at 5am for fun. I don't mind waking up early. What could I do that wouldn't wake up the rest of the house? Read? No. I could not focus. Look on Facebook? It's not entertaining. Eventually I laid in bed thinking of the future. It was nice of my body to rest for the next few hours. Then came the pain. My lower abdomen had the shooting feeling again. I got up, did my morning exercises, and attempted to eat. My four-year-old nephew was in the living room watching Curious George. We sat and watched the silly monkey until my lower side hurt again. I went to Urgent Care in Redlands on Saturday. In my head I prayed, Please don't make me go back. I'm done being sick. Straight at noon, I knew I had to go back. My nephew and his dad went to Target and the rest of the family was busy. I prayed for strength to accept any diagnosis. One hour went by. Another hour. And finally after three hours, there was an answer. Countless problems with my ovary.
I have a fever and pain. Those combinations are not good. Also, My primary doctor says that I probably have a torn meniscus in my knee. I am excited. I am excited to talk to these doctors about the gospel. I may be hurting, but it does not give a reason to stop spiritual encounters. Physical pain will be over come. I don't know what I am suppose to learn. The soul is willing, but the flesh is weak. I wonder how every thing will be next week. In the MTC we learned to take one day at a time. We are mortals. We can plan for the future. Emotions and strength are different daily. 1Nephi 3:7 "And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them." He prepares a way. One way. One day. One problem. I know through any pain will come happiness, if we fulfill our plan for the day.
Having this pain is a...pain!
Love always,
Kellie
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